She is just there…
to replace the person I was because your to dumb to admit you fucked it up and you will never be able to call me ‘YOUR’S’ again.
When you become happy in your own company, you feel proud of who you are and you are focusing on what makes you happy and nobody else. Shopping, working, college, gym, partying, smiling and caring about the people who matter most. Watching telly in your room and reading the new novel you have been given to complete over the holidays. Having alone time and being content in this time, saying no to commitment because you are happily committed to your own happiness. I am happy, truly happy for once in a long time in my life!
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Last day
at college tomorrow! i only have two lessons and then im off to work a 6 hour shift :) going to come home and sleeeeeeeep! knowing i dont have to get up early for stupid college anymore although in my first couple of days off i am going to get lots of college work done. Getting my hair cut on friday aswell so its alll good! Had a stressful evening at work tonight, gonna have to get this problem sorted out tomorrow otherwise it will drive me crazy! Im having a bit of a rant on here about my life. I want to take my mum to the cinema’s and buy her a fanta slush because theyre sooo nice. oooh im a happy bunny because college is nearly over and I have my 18th to look forward too! :)
Love you forever tom, dreaming of the good times we spent together. Your always in my mind and will never be forgotten! I am going to come and see you soon, love you forever and always xxxxxxxxxxxxx
I’ve ranted a lot today but I feel like shit, this cold is the worst I’ve had! Its all come at fucking once and I need a hug and hot chocolate to be made for me! Only high light is I get vicks and I’m reading twilight in bed, takes me away from reality and makes me feel I’m there :).
Lay in bed thinking about how much the guys I go for are arse holes. Is there any goodens out there really! Just done some work in my sketch book so i’m pretty chilled out. Hope i’m feeling better tomorrow! Not long til my birthday now! very exciting. I would love some cuddles in bed right now. Night.
